Typing this out could be another form of a Self-Destruction that i have created 4 Myself, Im Just like everyone else. Living out their Wildest Dreams & Fantasies in the MInd but not living it in the Real. But 2 the Ones that are Living the Exact Life they want to Live there is no Jealousy or Envy its always a reminder back 2 Me that what i am Presently & Currently Doing is not that of Excellence to Excel to Beyond the PLanet i am On. What is It that im Doing or Missing that is Enabling me to Perform at Such a Level that the Only things i Have 2 My Name is What i Currently Have. I can See It All in My mInds Eye but In reality Its Not there. Was i thinking of a Simpler Approach Covered in the Right Knobs being Turned or the Right Buttons Being Clicked, Cause now its all about Clicking the Right Buttons and Getting the Predetermined Result. I am Still Watching the World Go on Without me and I’M Sitting here Typing like this is Going to Help or Change anything. A habit I picked up in the LAst 90 Days that has stuck to me and held on. This Doesnt Feel Like Freedom it Feels like a Self Created Prison that im Looking into and Out of, Wishful Thinking is Not Helping, Thoughts is Not Helping/Helping. To Go & Be what i need 2 and want 2 Become, The Littlest Things Distract me. Everyone who Isnt me Is Me and they are Going toWards Soemthing Worth Risking Everything for. Im in my Head Looking for a Way out, Looking Looking Looking. I guess Im Just Going to Go
